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BonNyBonN
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Birthday: 10/20/1983
Gender: Female
Interests: Snowboarding!!!! Piano, trying to sing and dance...heheh.... the the Beach!!! and stuff....
Expertise: nothing really....
Occupation: Accounting/Finance
Industry: Business
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AIM:  Bonnyybon
Member Since:
2/10/2004
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so much has changed. its progress. very good. 
looking back about 3 to 4 years ago, who would've thought i would be where im at now. everyone grows up and makes some goals. i remember in high school, one of the teachers made us write down what we see ourselves 10 years from now. on that list was... graduate college, start my career, be married, and start having kids by 25. and now that its almost the 10 years later, everything is going as planned. besides the graduating part. hehe. i feel so blessed. and that one thing that i haven't crossed off that list, its in progress.
ok, this is a good blog so i'll leave it at that. besides its almost 10. way past bedtime...
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so i decided to actually waste some time on the internet today. ive missed it. hehe. can you believe it? im not on the internet 24/7 anymore? well actually if you count being on AIM mobile then nevermind. its was a really hard adjustment to not have access at work anymore. well technically i can use it. its just certain ones i can use. as long as i can use something to chat with! thank GOODNESS for gchat!
anywho, our dog has been sniffing around this room for the past 5 minutes. i have a feeling someone spilled some beer in here so hes licking it up. now that i think about it... having the music room upstairs with carpet might not be that good of an idea. the music room is coming together though. ej's organizing his records, setting up for the next party we're having. its becoming too much! hehe jk. its always good times though. cant think of one party that we've had when at least one person hasn't thrown up. its sick! ej has jinxed the guest bedroom!
sooooo... life has been good. of course it always has its up and downs. right now its down. family situations are just way hectic. last week was so hard. its like one thing after another. at one point i just wanted to quit work because it was so much to handle at home. not particularly this home, but my families' homes. ok well got interrupted so lost my train of thought...
time to catch up on the hills!
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why... all of a sudden.. in such a short period of time... all these things go wrong... just one after the other... it feels like life just isnt getting any better anymore... i feel like im back to being depressed again... and its not like i can go to someone and just talk and let out my feelings... because from the outside... someone will say... you're life is great.. theres nothing that you should be complaining about... but if i can just let out how i truly feel and if someone can just listen to what im holding inside.. then it will show... how sad i am... how hurt i am... how lost i am
im not saying that everything in my life is like this... but there are certain things that... dont make my life happy anymore... i try... i try to just suck it up and put up a front like nothing is wrong... i try to just take it and deal with it... but its hard.. especially hard when i feel like i cant go to anyone for help anymore... but this is what i get... i run away... run away from problems and just try to put these things behind me... but the truth is... it will never leave...
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thank goodness things have slowed down at work. today i actually had time to help plan our christmas event for work. hopefully it will be fun. it turns out that a couple of them have to go to a show and cant make it. kinda sucks cuz it was so last minute. but im sure majority of the people that are going will make it fun anyway. its something to look forward to since its not like any traditional work christmas party. since most of the people that work here are guys, it'll be heaven for them. pizza, beer, and bowling.
so this past weekend i realized that... ive cut back on complaining outloud. i still complain, but i hold it all in. which is not good at all. i think it just makes my frustrations towards ej a lot worse than what it really is. at first i thought...well he said stop complaining so much... so i did stop... saying it to him. but now that im holding it all in... the SMALLEST thing just makes me go crazy. but i know that even if i do complain, he wont want to hear it, or it will make me seem selfish, or not happy... ughhh nevermind. just thinking about it already is getting me frustrated.
maybe im just not happy period. not happy with my life. because of so much stress and problems ive been having to deal with. i dont know...
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